Gentle correction or gettin’ knocked on your rear?

Do you ever get that gentle correction from the Lord? Or do you just get that earth-shaking wake up call that knocks you on your rear letting you know you are being disobedient.  God uses whatever He chooses. It is not always a disobedience that He is correcting, but it may be that I am not spending enough time in the Word so He can speak to me. Sometimes He uses those, “AHA!” moments. Sometimes He does use illness. Sometimes He uses other people to let me know that I am falling short.  Sometimes He speaks directly to my heart.   This is what I got today…

Not in these words exactly but the Lord impressed this on my heart. “Tara, you sure are sick.  In the last month you have been in severe pain with a ruptured ovarian cyst and you now have the flu.  I am trying to get your attention here.”  “Yes Lord! I am listening.” As I lay on my bed He truly spoke to my heart and said, “I miss you dear one. Where have you been? You don’t even know where your bible is do you?”  UUUUUMMM well since you can’t lie to God, I said, “No, Lord I sure don’t! I am so sorry, please forgive me.

Wonderfully forgiven I sit here typing.  Then He let me know that I need to write about this. So here it is.  It doesn’t matter what situation you are in always make time for God. While you are on your back hacking up a lung, spend some time in prayer.

When needy children who are clawing and pawing at you surround you, read them a verse from the Bible.  (Not the rain down fire and brimstone people!) Pray a blessing of peace over them.  God’s word never returns void as it says in Isaiah 55:11 NLT “It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it.”

God has been trying to get my attention. It seems rather painful right now, but it could have been worse.  The CT scan shows no more cysts. My flu will eventually go away.  My husband and dad have been super heroes helping me.

God provides.

He never leaves us. He is, He was and Always will be. He is the provider. He is the Rock. He is everything to me.  He heals all my ills, affords me with great care. He never leaves me with a burden I can’t bear.  I am never alone. He is always near. He will never stop bending to me His listening ear. Unfaithful am I to share this truth.  May I be more like your beloved Ruth.

Forsooth. Gotta love that word!!! I wanted to use it in my poem, but, was unable to. I Used it in a random sentence.  🙂

Any way. Listen to the Lord He is pretty awesome!

Where are we going?

Where are we going?

Why are we here? We are waiting, our ears bended near.
Show us Lord the path we must walk. Show us Lord and help us talk.
About the plans for each one of us laid. Reveal to us how this hand should be played.

Lord we crave your will for us and so, we wait and hope and trust.
Our hearts are yearning for that rush yet we wait as you whisper, “hush”.
“I will show you how to play that hand. Whether you should really buy that land.
I will open and close each door. As I’ve been faithful to do before.
I have never left you there to falter, when you leave it at my altar.
Pray and seek and you will find, what joyous plan is in my mind.
Your vision, your dreams are what they seem. True peace will shine in your eyes as they gleam.
Awaiting the door to swing open wide. My joy is complete as you gaze inside.
Keep your trust in Me alone, because on your journey My light has shown.
Unbolt your heart to what is new. Because it is the best thing to do.
God I ask that you would fill our hearts with truth and truth alone. On our path and in our hearts let your light be powerfully shown.

Keepin’ the fire burnin’

Our family has undergone a lot of change in the last year and half.  We adopted. Our car died along the road last Christmas and we had to purchase another vehicle. God gave us the money to pay it off.  We put our house on the market. (with false expectations on my part that it would sell in one week! It took less than 80) My husband was offered a job. Quit his job. Took a huge pay cut.  We sold our house. Packed our house. Moved our family across town to live with my parents for an undetermined amount of time. We put a bid on some property only to find out it had a well that belongs to someone else for 99 years and about 4 acres of the 10 has easements!

So, date night? Pffft!  We had one in June as we celebrated our 16 year anniversary. 🙂

That is good considering but you know it isn’t what it should be.

Sammy asked my mom to watch the girls and we had our first date the other night when we went out for one of our favorite foods! Indian! We had a wonderful time together and we talked about life in Africa where we lived and learned to cook and love Indian food. We talked about life now as we are walking an a path entirely dependent upon the Lord which is where we should always be!

Just like the fire in the picture, we need to keep the fire going with our friendships, our mates and especially God. Without Him we are nothing.

Relationships take time.

It took forever to get this fire going this morning!  Kindling, paper, more kindling! It didn’t just start right up. Building a good fire takes time and patience. (Not gasoline people!)

Take the time today to rekindle your old flame with your spouse. Make a phone call to someone who is on your heart. Cry out to the Maker of Heaven and Earth and ask Him to restart the flame in your heart.  Live in the warmth His love brings!  Stay warm my friends!

Takin’ me some supplements!

 

As I spent time reading my Bible today I laughed out loud. The kids were having a crazy time at the breakfast table and I had gotten up early to read my bible. I told myself that I was not getting up until I was done with my Bible study!

After a recent conversation with my 10-year-old where I had confessed to her that the “day” I was the nicest was the only day that I read my bible that week. She looked at me in all seriousness and said, “Bible study? Who knew?” Well that just solidified that my time without God had not gone unnoticed last week!

I spent time reading a couple of passages and really began to focus on one passage in particular.

Verse 5 struck me because as many of us have deficiencies in our diets, we are always told we need to take a supplement of some sort. Vitamin D, fish oil, and a really good multivitamin are a few I have been told to take.

Here was a biblical supplement list from 1 Peter 1:3-10 ESV

 

Take some faith with virtue.
Then you need some virtue with knowledge.
Add knowledge with self-control.
Self-control is paired with steadfastness.
On top of that, you need steadfastness with godliness.
For good measure you should also have godliness with brotherly affection.
The last important set is brotherly affection with love.

I am of course adding the humor here but it goes on to say that if these qualities are yours and are increasing, they keep you from being ineffective or unfruitful in the knowledge of the Lord.

So. What are we doing to supplement our spiritual walk?

Spending time in the Word anyone?

Be blessed friends and get your supplement daily!!!

 

 

Refining

Watching and feeling the refining process I know it’s supposed to be painful God.

But watching and feeling the refining process is utterly taking my breath away.

My spirit and heart are in anguish and sorrow, yet quitting is not an option for me.

Finding my solace in Your arms so holy, is something I haven’t done for some time.

Running and running a little hamster on my wheel. All I’m doing is running out of time.

My day is so full of activity and wildness, yet I don’t make time for Your Word.

Your arms open wide waiting for me to join You. You soothingly draw me in with Your shepherd’s staff.

Please child just listen to my wisdom and my peace you’ll find when you follow my plan.

But God what am I to do while I’m waiting? Waiting for change as You refine me God.

You rest, seek, and listen to what I am saying. I have never let you down before.

I have a plan so grand so perfect, but run ahead of me and your heart will break.

Will you today listen to the truth that I tell you? Will you choose to pick up your cross?

Will you bow your head and your knee to me? Will you come follow me when I call?

I am calling but laborers are few. Are you choosing to walk on My road?

Let me dig into your heart yet another time and pull from its depths a painful thorn.

A thorn you have kept there for far too long it has wrapped ‘round your heart, and pierced your song.

Freedom will come when you let me in. To free you from this pride that’s a sin.

Bandaged and bleeding no room left for that sin. I am going to take it from here.

See my head, my hands my side? You are the reason your Savior died.

I have loved you with an everlasting love. I gave up my life and left Heaven above.

To seek and to save those who were lost. My life, my everything was what it cost.

Empty that tomb was on the third day. For your sins I did willingly pay.

So for you to sit and pity yourself is a waste of My time and it hurts My heart.

I have a job for you to do and when you’re ready you’ll enthusiastically pursue it.

Now for today take your rest in Me. Only then will you be truly free.

Free to laugh and free to be you which is exactly what you’re intended to do.

Be the you I’ve created dear one. Let down your guard and have some fun.

Love your babies and your mate. Find My truth that the harvest is great.

Be my laborer in this exciting adventure. Watch the darkness flee as you follow Me.

 

I’m sorry Lord.

 

Lord, I’m sorry I have not kept trusting. All the while my Bible sat rusting.

I’ve only been away for two or three days, but I’ve seen Your hand in so many ways.

You’ve brought us extra money and boy, that’s sweeter that sugar, sweeter than honey!

You’ve shown us daily that You’ll always be here to catch that unsuspected escaping tear.

They flow so freely down my cheeks. How long will the pain last. Hopefully not weeks!

In a bottle you save  all my gloom You place them carefully in that room.

You are truthful. You are kind. You always keep me sane in my mind.

You are generous. You are wise. So why does your faithfulness always surprise?

“Lord I believe, help my unbelief.”  To be with You in your throne room I feel incredible relief.

Thank you Lord for forgiving me. For making me more into the woman I’m to be.

 

Psalm 56:8 “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.”

Life lesson

Filling my stomach with food that I don’t need is like trying to do something only God can. Nothing fills like God. Nothing fixes like God. No person, no thing, no item can fill the emptiness. God is the only one that can fill a void that is left by sin being cleaned out. If you are empty, ask Him to fill you. If you are sad, ask for joy. If you are lonely, be a friend. If you are grouchy, ask God to make you laugh. If you are heartbroken, ask God to mend your heart. If you are fighting with someone over something dumb, stop fighting and ask God to make you a peacemaker. If you are a “functioning nagaholic” STOP and ask Gd to make you thankful for the blessings in your life rather than focusing on the negative and then harping on the people in YOUR path. Be thankful! Be kind! Be loving! Be gracious!~

Ok! so that was God’s lesson to me this morning.

If you are scared…

Last night we had a good storm. By good, I mean it rained and there was lightning and thunder. I LOVE STORMS!!! We have told the kids when they ask, “If I am scared can I come to your room?” that they are welcome to come crawl into bed with us.

Last night someone crawled between Sammy and I, laid their head on my pillow while I was sleeping. I reached out to comfort them but when I did, I found out it was Angel, our 60 pound Springer Spaniel!  She had gotten so scared that she climbed in between Sammy and I could not move her! She was so heavy in my sleep darkened state, that I just left her there with her loud snore reverberating in our bedroom!

While I expected it to be one of the kids, Angel was shaking and scared so I left her there. In the morning, I was in a tremendous amount of neck and back pain because that perfect sleep number was off with her extra weight.

How often do you or I leave some particular sin in our life because it is just easier to leave it there rather than  fight the sin to get it out?  It is sometimes easier to leave it be!  Is it right when the pain of the choice comes with the willingness to leave it?

NO! NO! NO!

If you are scared, pray it out.  Get “the dog off the sleep number bed” and a make your life easier. We need to ask God to take the sin out of our lives and live a life pleasing to the Lord walking with Him free from the sin that causes tremendous pain. If you are scared, run to the One who can rescue you. Climb up and let Him love on you. 🙂

I’m drowning.

I’m drowning! I’m drowning! I hear myself cry. I’m right here Lord just waiting to die.

The wind is whirling round me today. Help me Lord. Help me I say!

He speaks to me in His strong voice. Rebuking the storm it has no choice.

Peace be still says He to it and a calm slides in where I pitifully sit.

“Why don’t you have faith?” “Why are you so fearful?” “Why not be happy?” “Why not be cheerful?”

Yet here He is He can calm this storm. Why do I sit in pity so forlorn?

He can calm the sea with His words. He cares for the fish He cares for the birds.

He can pull me out of the pit where I am wallowing. Sitting in decadence sorrow borrowing.

When will I learn His grace is sufficient? Enough for the day and for what’s in it.

He cares for the cattle on a thousand Hills. He cares for my heart what ails and what ills.

My depression and pain He understands too. Your despair and your aches He’s also with you.

He has us in His loving arms. Sheltered, not untouched by life’s evil charms.

What sin we allow in He waits to take out. Self-pity and pride are the first see ya later. Hatred and bitterness no more not a hater.

Self-loathing and fear for too long you’ve been near. You are not welcome I won’t bend my ear.

To listen to the lies that swirl all around. Keeping me in this storm waiting to be found.

He says yet again “Why do you doubt? Come to me dear one I will take the sin out.

Ah! That is better I can open my eyes. My life is free from all Satan’s lies.

Seeing the truth not bound by the fear. Not letting myself being repeatedly knocked to my rear.

Standing strong. Not alone. My heart not divided. With my Heavenly Father I am now reunited.