Humbly Bowed

Humbly bowed, in your presence Lord.  I call to you, come find me where I am.

I’m begging now, down on my knees. I need you God, to make me pure again.

Here I am, a sinner needing cleansed. Come wash me now, from all this filth and sin.

Forgiveness flows, like blood and water flowed. From Your side, Your life just slipped away.

Thank you God, forgiveness floods my soul. I’m pure again, washed as white as snow.

My sins are cast. Far away from me. From east to west, thank you God I’m free!

 

Duck Feathers

 There are times in each of our lives that we are on the receiving end of harsh words, or we are the ones dealing the harshness. We have to waddle around with what people say and how it is spoken to us. Do we allow what is voiced, to sit and fester with bitterness and resentment building up? Tucking it away for another day?

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We need some duck feathers!

Have you have ever observed a duck in the water getting wet? Water droplets bead up on it’s back and simply roll off. My prayer the other day was, “Lord, let the unkind words spoken to me just roll off my back. Give me some ‘spiritual duck feathers’ to protect my heart. In Your name, Amen”

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Do you need to ask the Lord for a set of duck feathers?

If we allow the yucky, messy, gross, and putrid bitterness to turn into rottenness, what do we expect is going to come out of our mouths and our hearts? It won’t be good!

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We don’t need to hold all of the resentment and bitterness inside. Let’s ask God to get it out so that our hearts don’t spew putrid bile on our loved ones. Get away from that habit.

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Proverbs 4:23 NIV says it so plainly,

“Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.”

So, let’s have God clean out what is in there already and pray for some duck feathers to protect our hearts from what will be said in the future.

(Maybe I should have prayed for the shell of an armadillo! Then again, maybe not, as they have leprosy. Eeew. )

Duck feathers my friends!

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You are the One

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You are the One
By: Tara Young

You are my King and my Lord
Gracious forevermore.
You are the one
You are the one.

You the Savior, Son of the King
You are the One
You are the One

I lift my voice to You
You are all that’s good and true.
You are the One
You are the One

My heart cries out to you
You are deliverer too
You are the One
You are the One

Finding solace there
You’ve counted each and every hair
You are the One
You are the One

For every tear I’ve cried
for every lie I’ve lied.
You are the One
Yes, You are the One.

You are the beginning and the end
Alpha Omega without sin
You are the One
Oh, You are the One.

Lord You are the One
Yes, You are the One

Creator of everything
Life giving Holy God
You are the One
Yes, You are the One

Joy giving, heart healer
Mind blowing love revealer
You are the One
Yes You are the One

Jesus your mighty hand
Delivers me from sinking sand
You are the One
You are the One

Soiled and forgiven dove.
I am one You dearly love
You are the One
You are the One

God my heart you mend
When my clothes I have rend
You are the One
You are the One

Peace washes over me
Giving me hope in Your great mercy.
You are the One
Yes You are the One

Gladness unleashed
My life restored
You are the One
You are the One

You are my love
The One I adore
You are the One
You are the One

Love spilling out my heart is full
You’re so awesome. I am Your jewel.
You are the One
Yes, You are the One

Gentle correction or gettin’ knocked on your rear?

Do you ever get that gentle correction from the Lord? Or do you just get that earth-shaking wake up call that knocks you on your rear letting you know you are being disobedient.  God uses whatever He chooses. It is not always a disobedience that He is correcting, but it may be that I am not spending enough time in the Word so He can speak to me. Sometimes He uses those, “AHA!” moments. Sometimes He does use illness. Sometimes He uses other people to let me know that I am falling short.  Sometimes He speaks directly to my heart.   This is what I got today…

Not in these words exactly but the Lord impressed this on my heart. “Tara, you sure are sick.  In the last month you have been in severe pain with a ruptured ovarian cyst and you now have the flu.  I am trying to get your attention here.”  “Yes Lord! I am listening.” As I lay on my bed He truly spoke to my heart and said, “I miss you dear one. Where have you been? You don’t even know where your bible is do you?”  UUUUUMMM well since you can’t lie to God, I said, “No, Lord I sure don’t! I am so sorry, please forgive me.

Wonderfully forgiven I sit here typing.  Then He let me know that I need to write about this. So here it is.  It doesn’t matter what situation you are in always make time for God. While you are on your back hacking up a lung, spend some time in prayer.

When needy children who are clawing and pawing at you surround you, read them a verse from the Bible.  (Not the rain down fire and brimstone people!) Pray a blessing of peace over them.  God’s word never returns void as it says in Isaiah 55:11 NLT “It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it.”

God has been trying to get my attention. It seems rather painful right now, but it could have been worse.  The CT scan shows no more cysts. My flu will eventually go away.  My husband and dad have been super heroes helping me.

God provides.

He never leaves us. He is, He was and Always will be. He is the provider. He is the Rock. He is everything to me.  He heals all my ills, affords me with great care. He never leaves me with a burden I can’t bear.  I am never alone. He is always near. He will never stop bending to me His listening ear. Unfaithful am I to share this truth.  May I be more like your beloved Ruth.

Forsooth. Gotta love that word!!! I wanted to use it in my poem, but, was unable to. I Used it in a random sentence.  🙂

Any way. Listen to the Lord He is pretty awesome!

I’m sorry Lord.

 

Lord, I’m sorry I have not kept trusting. All the while my Bible sat rusting.

I’ve only been away for two or three days, but I’ve seen Your hand in so many ways.

You’ve brought us extra money and boy, that’s sweeter that sugar, sweeter than honey!

You’ve shown us daily that You’ll always be here to catch that unsuspected escaping tear.

They flow so freely down my cheeks. How long will the pain last. Hopefully not weeks!

In a bottle you save  all my gloom You place them carefully in that room.

You are truthful. You are kind. You always keep me sane in my mind.

You are generous. You are wise. So why does your faithfulness always surprise?

“Lord I believe, help my unbelief.”  To be with You in your throne room I feel incredible relief.

Thank you Lord for forgiving me. For making me more into the woman I’m to be.

 

Psalm 56:8 “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.”

Life lesson

Filling my stomach with food that I don’t need is like trying to do something only God can. Nothing fills like God. Nothing fixes like God. No person, no thing, no item can fill the emptiness. God is the only one that can fill a void that is left by sin being cleaned out. If you are empty, ask Him to fill you. If you are sad, ask for joy. If you are lonely, be a friend. If you are grouchy, ask God to make you laugh. If you are heartbroken, ask God to mend your heart. If you are fighting with someone over something dumb, stop fighting and ask God to make you a peacemaker. If you are a “functioning nagaholic” STOP and ask Gd to make you thankful for the blessings in your life rather than focusing on the negative and then harping on the people in YOUR path. Be thankful! Be kind! Be loving! Be gracious!~

Ok! so that was God’s lesson to me this morning.

Nearly 19 years ago

Nearly 19 years ago, I was walking in the dark

Nearly 19 years ago, I was living, walls so stark.

Nearly 19 years ago, I was not walking in the light

Nearly 19 years ago, I was walking in my might.

 

Nearly 19 years ago, I lived a life so wild.

Nearly 19 years ago, I found myself with child

Nearly 19 years ago, I chose to take your life from you

Nearly 19 years ago, I still wonder where time flew.

 

Now 19 years later, I still grieve my loss.

Now 19 years later, my life is not all dross

Now 19 years later, three other souls are with you on that side.

Now 19 years later, sorrow spills a salty tide.

 

Now 19 years later, my tears once a year do fall

Now 19 years later, I have given Him my all

Now 19 years later, I am grateful He forgives

Now 19 years later, in my heart He loves and lives.

 

This is a very tender subject for me. Tonight my husband got a phone call about a friend and his wife ready to deliver a baby. I was reminded of my choice and that I will never have a biological child. That time has past because of medical reasons, but this I do know, He is in control at all times. Please know that there are many who have suffered silently with grief. Don’t continue. Ask for help from someone in your church or find a godly counselor to reach out to. Call a friend and ask for help. Don’t stay locked away in your sorrow or depression! You are loved. You are forgiven. You are precious to the One who created you!

 Thank you Lord for redeeming me and loving me.

 

If you are scared…

Last night we had a good storm. By good, I mean it rained and there was lightning and thunder. I LOVE STORMS!!! We have told the kids when they ask, “If I am scared can I come to your room?” that they are welcome to come crawl into bed with us.

Last night someone crawled between Sammy and I, laid their head on my pillow while I was sleeping. I reached out to comfort them but when I did, I found out it was Angel, our 60 pound Springer Spaniel!  She had gotten so scared that she climbed in between Sammy and I could not move her! She was so heavy in my sleep darkened state, that I just left her there with her loud snore reverberating in our bedroom!

While I expected it to be one of the kids, Angel was shaking and scared so I left her there. In the morning, I was in a tremendous amount of neck and back pain because that perfect sleep number was off with her extra weight.

How often do you or I leave some particular sin in our life because it is just easier to leave it there rather than  fight the sin to get it out?  It is sometimes easier to leave it be!  Is it right when the pain of the choice comes with the willingness to leave it?

NO! NO! NO!

If you are scared, pray it out.  Get “the dog off the sleep number bed” and a make your life easier. We need to ask God to take the sin out of our lives and live a life pleasing to the Lord walking with Him free from the sin that causes tremendous pain. If you are scared, run to the One who can rescue you. Climb up and let Him love on you. 🙂

Do I refuse?

Do I refuse your tender embrace when I through my day do blindly race?

Your voice is calling for me to hear, but instead I decide to turn my ear.

Your protection you offer to keep me from harm, but like a small child I pull away my arm.

As does the child who wants to go her own way. You watch so sadly as I stray.

Your heart still calls as I fall down. My face now upturned filled with a frown.

My tears fall and my heart breaks.  I ran from you and Your heart aches.

I am back Daddy please hold me tight. I will try today to bask in Your light.

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I got into the truck the other day and a foul scent assaulted me! Blech!  Something smelled rotten or deceased.  I looked under every seat thinking maybe I left some sort of food in the truck or on the rare time, the kids got something from a fast food restaurant they dropped a piece of meat or something. The stench was overwhelming. After searching the entire truck, I found NOTHING!

Nothing that I could see.

Ah but we all know just because we can’t see something does not mean it is not there.   Of course I felt like God had a lesson for me. I asked the Lord to reveal the hidden stench of sin in my life. What do I not see that is foul to His nose?  Is it bitterness? Is it a lack of faith? Is it lack of trust in God who always knows what I need? Is it fear?   I spent a lot of time praying about it and He revealed to me what it was. (I don’t have to tell you!! haha my blog my rules! :))  I asked the Lord to forgive me and after a few more days and a few more prayers, the stench in the truck had dissipated. God is so faithful dear people.

Any hidden sin “hiding in your truck”? Any “awful smells”?

Ask God to reveal it to you so that the sweet fragrance of the Lord would envelope you again.
Bless you friends!

Check out this amazing song 🙂

Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone) – Chris Tomlin (with lyrics)