Mother’s Day – For broken, barren or grieving moms who have lost a child.

For the broken-hearted mother whose arms long for a child, yet have none to hold. I remember your pain. I remember the sorrow.  You are not alone. You are not forgotten. Your heart is in His hands.

It is ok to cry.

It is ok to grieve.

Don’t give up hope.

You are precious.

You are dear to your Maker and those around you. 

You are loved.

On mother’s day, if you know someone who has lost a child and grieves, let them know they are loved.  There is a despair on Mother’s Day that is so deep and painful.  Love them. Cherish them. Show them you care.

A Mother in my Heart

by Tara Young

We waited and hoped and prayed it was so. My spouse and I to the doctor did go.

The baby not here yet I longed to hold. To watch while that child grew and we grew old.

The inky dark blackness has settled in. What did I do was it some secret sin?

My child, my children, they are all gone. My womb now is empty I can’t sing any song.

No baby to hold, my heart is breaking. My body, the pain, my soul is shaking.

Why oh why did He do this to us? I feel like saying bad words just to cuss!

The empty cold stare reflects nothingness. His reflection reflects his helplessness.

Why go to celebrate Mother’s day as they hand out roses or pins my emotions they fray.

My heart, it aches, it burns with despair. I just want this life to be fair.

Empty arms, broken-hearted as my children have since departed.

Remember me as you see me at church, I am here waiting for peace as I search.

For the reasons of life I don’t understand. God I’m stretched out like a rubber band.

I am a broken piece of shattered art. I will always be a mother in my heart.

Since this grief, God has blessed me 3 beautiful adopted daughters and I am so glad. There is still a small part of my heart which loves the 3 I lost. They are with the Lord and I find solace in that. Safe in the arms of Jesus who loves them perfectly.

Prayers for you if you are hurting. Cry out to the Lord. He will hear you friend. If you need to leave a message, I will do my best to answer you. 🙂 Virtual hugs to your grieving heart.

Beautiful Mosaic Art

Beautiful Mosaic Art

By Tara Young

Stepping out of the darkness the grief is nearly gone. The ache of loss and sorrow, your mercy now upon me shon.

You are the healing hand that wiped away my tears. You sent a wonderful family that took away the fears.

That childless I would always be. Alone with no children to love. Just like that day many years ago when You gave me a precious dove.

You answered my prayer and gave me a child not one, but two, then three.  You blessed me tremendously yet sometimes it is hard to see.

There are some days the grief rolls in and nearly drowns my heart. Then I cry and remember my life is a piece of beautiful, mosaic art.

You are the One

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You are the One
By: Tara Young

You are my King and my Lord
Gracious forevermore.
You are the one
You are the one.

You the Savior, Son of the King
You are the One
You are the One

I lift my voice to You
You are all that’s good and true.
You are the One
You are the One

My heart cries out to you
You are deliverer too
You are the One
You are the One

Finding solace there
You’ve counted each and every hair
You are the One
You are the One

For every tear I’ve cried
for every lie I’ve lied.
You are the One
Yes, You are the One.

You are the beginning and the end
Alpha Omega without sin
You are the One
Oh, You are the One.

Lord You are the One
Yes, You are the One

Creator of everything
Life giving Holy God
You are the One
Yes, You are the One

Joy giving, heart healer
Mind blowing love revealer
You are the One
Yes You are the One

Jesus your mighty hand
Delivers me from sinking sand
You are the One
You are the One

Soiled and forgiven dove.
I am one You dearly love
You are the One
You are the One

God my heart you mend
When my clothes I have rend
You are the One
You are the One

Peace washes over me
Giving me hope in Your great mercy.
You are the One
Yes You are the One

Gladness unleashed
My life restored
You are the One
You are the One

You are my love
The One I adore
You are the One
You are the One

Love spilling out my heart is full
You’re so awesome. I am Your jewel.
You are the One
Yes, You are the One

Nearly 19 years ago

Nearly 19 years ago, I was walking in the dark

Nearly 19 years ago, I was living, walls so stark.

Nearly 19 years ago, I was not walking in the light

Nearly 19 years ago, I was walking in my might.

 

Nearly 19 years ago, I lived a life so wild.

Nearly 19 years ago, I found myself with child

Nearly 19 years ago, I chose to take your life from you

Nearly 19 years ago, I still wonder where time flew.

 

Now 19 years later, I still grieve my loss.

Now 19 years later, my life is not all dross

Now 19 years later, three other souls are with you on that side.

Now 19 years later, sorrow spills a salty tide.

 

Now 19 years later, my tears once a year do fall

Now 19 years later, I have given Him my all

Now 19 years later, I am grateful He forgives

Now 19 years later, in my heart He loves and lives.

 

This is a very tender subject for me. Tonight my husband got a phone call about a friend and his wife ready to deliver a baby. I was reminded of my choice and that I will never have a biological child. That time has past because of medical reasons, but this I do know, He is in control at all times. Please know that there are many who have suffered silently with grief. Don’t continue. Ask for help from someone in your church or find a godly counselor to reach out to. Call a friend and ask for help. Don’t stay locked away in your sorrow or depression! You are loved. You are forgiven. You are precious to the One who created you!

 Thank you Lord for redeeming me and loving me.

 

I thought of you today

I thought about you today as I went upon my busy way.

You are there and I am here I wish it were not far but near.

Your sorrow grief and tears do fly to her away now in the sky.

With Jesus and His Father too, which means she is not here with you.

An empty place a hole so large. It doesn’t seem like He’s in charge.

But on this earth you were blessed with her life. Losing her cuts like a carving knife. Taking a part of your heart with her, waking and sleeping you do concur.

Are more than many each day to bear. Why oh why it doesn’t seem fair.

The answers I wish were easy and true. This I do know He is with you.

On this broken path you walk. Now more jagged and painful you balk.

He has not forgotten your crew He is walking right there with you.

Her smile her face her life was a joy. And one day will be reunited OH BOY!

Your sweet lass, has found her way. I wish there was more that I could say.

Though I knew her not, your family has been a light burning hot.

My life because of you intertwined. I grieve with you, as you are refined.

In the fire that burns so deep. In His arms He will safely keep.

Your daughter dear has flown above. She is remembered each day with love.

He is not here now.

Taken from the book of Mark chapters 15-16.

Sweet Jesus He hangs there nailed to the cross. He willing gave up His life for us all.

He hangs ‘tween two robbers two sinners two low lives. They are quite simply an example of me.
Bitter wine he refuses. They cast lots for His garments. “Come down” they say. “You can Lord you’re the King of the Jews!”
Chief priests, scribes, and others all mock Him with their words.  The sixth hour is here the sixth hour has come.
Darkness ‘til the ninth hour when Jesus He cries out, “My God my God why have You forsaken me?”

Jesus uttered a loud cry and breathed His last breath. The curtain in the temple was torn it two.

From top to bottom now that is from God’s hand. The soldier said, “Truly this man was the Son of God.”

But the story of Jesus does not end in this way. You see 3 days later He was alive again!

The stone had been rolled back.  Two Marys brought their spices and to their shock a young man did they see.

“Do not be alarmed ladies.” I would have been panicked but guess what, they weren’t the listened instead.

Jesus of Nazareth He is risen not here now. See the place where they laid Him it’s empty and bare.

The young man told them to tell the disciples and Peter, “He is going before you to the town Galilee.”

“There you will see Him just as He told you. They fled from the town and astonishment seized them. They said nothing to anyone because they were afraid.

He appeared to Mary, the one delivered from demons. “She went and told those who were with Him” they cried and they wept as their friend was dead now.

This woman she tells them that He was alive but believe it they did not.  But He showed Himself to two more.

When they went back to tell the others they’d seen Him. They didn’t believe what those two had said.

He then appeared to eleven disciples. He came through the walls what a sight that must’ve been!

Go tell the whole world now proclaim me to creation whoever believes and is baptized is saved.