Beautiful Mosaic Art

Beautiful Mosaic Art

By Tara Young

Stepping out of the darkness the grief is nearly gone. The ache of loss and sorrow, your mercy now upon me shon.

You are the healing hand that wiped away my tears. You sent a wonderful family that took away the fears.

That childless I would always be. Alone with no children to love. Just like that day many years ago when You gave me a precious dove.

You answered my prayer and gave me a child not one, but two, then three.  You blessed me tremendously yet sometimes it is hard to see.

There are some days the grief rolls in and nearly drowns my heart. Then I cry and remember my life is a piece of beautiful, mosaic art.

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My Shadow

My Shadow

By Tara Young

I have a little shadow. She follows me around.

She does everything that I do. She mimics every sound.

Each word, each sound, and every move I make

Her little eyes inside do take.

She stores them in her memory and sometimes they come out,

In ways that are embarrassing and humbly I will pout.

From the Bible I did stray and chose that day to swerve.

Not following your will, your Word I did not observe.

You see my little shadow is a tiny girl.

A 3-year-old with years untold watching my life as it unfurled.

What do my words teach her? Are they training her in truth?

Or am I teaching her to tell a lie in her formidable youth.

Do my actions, which I show,

Send her to the cross where I pray for her to go?

Today as my shadow follows me, help me Lord I pray.

To take each tender moment to show her You today.

the family nobody wanted. A must read book!

The Family Nobody Wanted

the family nobody wanted

My cousin sent me this book as we have adopted 3 children. I didn’t read it right away because just the title alone is sad to me. As we have gone through each adoption, we have learned that nothing is EVER the same. 🙂 You are probably saying some smarty pants comment right now like “duh” or “seriously?” but you never know what to expect with adoption. Heartache and love go hand in hand.

Life changes so differently for each side of the family. This book made me laugh, cry, doubt, and lean more on God. He truly is the one who makes all things happen in His time.

I highly recommend this book to those whose hearts are blessed by adoption, to those considering adoption or those who work with foster care children. Rather, any person who loves should read this!

Have a wonderful day.

Tara

Fly Paper Mama

Are there times when in the distance, you hear someone calling your name? Are you actually listening?  Do you care?

Then you realize the person is right next to you, repeating your name and calling you. MOM! MOM! MOM! Can you hear me? I am talking to you. MOM?!”. Is there a frustration that builds as they pull you from your own blissful world of silence?

Being a stay at home mom can be a challenge at times. There is a constant barrage of questions and answers that trickle in through the calm. Constant redirection and correction are your tools. Little rears, little noses and little hands that all need attention NOW!

Little lips are kissing my arm like one of those water pecking birds.

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I am in the midst of doing some chore. The other two are speaking as they increase the decibel level by 10 so that they can be louder than the other to get my attention. The garden needs to be watered. Five piles of semi folded laundry are scattered in the living room. Dinner is in the oven and the dishwasher is in over drive.

Then someone announces, “The dog just rolled in horse poo mom and she wants to come in!”  

“NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! DON’T LET HER IN!!!”

“Hi Angel.” (In a very gushy talking to the dog voice. Those who have dogs, know what I am talking about!)

“OUT! OUT! OUT!”

“Mom, she wanted to say hi.”

“She can say hi from the door next time.”

(True story) 🙂

Do you feel like you just can’t listen anymore because you are so frustrated with life going on all around you?

Do you feel like Fly Paper?

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Turn this situation around to yourself.  Imagine you are with a friend or a spouse having lunch or a coffee.  You are chatting away only to realize they did not hear a word you said.  Shock and dismay are pretty common reactions here. Feeling unimportant to them is another.

I really like to speak and be heard. I really like to listen. I have to remember though, that even though my children are little, they are still little people. They do need to be heard. I am training them by my actions and reactions how to be adult listeners.

Am I showing them that is ok not to listen while someone is speaking to them?

OR

Am I making them feel special, because I am taking time from my busy day to demonstrate the same love that I want to be showered with?

There is a great responsibility before us as we raise children to be good listeners.

Lend your ear today.  Listen to what the little people are saying. 🙂

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Lord, let me be a good example to my children today. Guide me as I teach and instruct them in Your ways. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

 James 1:19-20 NIV “My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, 20 because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires.”

Spicy!

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Jack in the box

I feel like that guy sometimes! Especially when I am trying to read my Bible. The kids are pulling open my lid by arguing, fighting, whining until I have to go be the referee to break up their “Smack Down” going on in the living room!!!

Right now I guess I am in a season. Mothering small children is a season. They aren’t always going to be small. Sometimes as a parent or caregiver you don’t know which way is up so you muddle around waiting for direction.
As I was praying the other day, I came to the conclusion that this is a time for trusting. This is a season for resting in God. This is like no other and when it is gone it can never be reclaimed.

I look at each child as a “season”ing in my life. A way that God is allowing me to grow and change and become more like Him. I have 4 main seasonings including my DH. They all start with the letter “C”.

Cilantro, Curry, Cayenne and Chili. Whoowee!   

God has blessed me with some serious fire power! 🙂 He has given me some serious action in my house and I pray that I will help them learn how to use the gifts that God has given to make their lives a pleasing aroma to Him.  My prayer was this, “God, help me to make these ‘seasonings’ into an aroma that is pleasing to You. May our mixed soup pot of seasonings waft to those around us to be a blessing to others. Please help me to appreciate your life changing spices and help me to show them the appropriate way to use their gifts as You have placed them in my life.”

I polled my DH and a few friends to see what “C” Herb or spice I was and here is the list in no particular order:
Chili
Chamomile
Cinnamon

What are you? Are you pleasing to those around you? Am I?
Be spicy my friends!

Gentle correction or gettin’ knocked on your rear?

Do you ever get that gentle correction from the Lord? Or do you just get that earth-shaking wake up call that knocks you on your rear letting you know you are being disobedient.  God uses whatever He chooses. It is not always a disobedience that He is correcting, but it may be that I am not spending enough time in the Word so He can speak to me. Sometimes He uses those, “AHA!” moments. Sometimes He does use illness. Sometimes He uses other people to let me know that I am falling short.  Sometimes He speaks directly to my heart.   This is what I got today…

Not in these words exactly but the Lord impressed this on my heart. “Tara, you sure are sick.  In the last month you have been in severe pain with a ruptured ovarian cyst and you now have the flu.  I am trying to get your attention here.”  “Yes Lord! I am listening.” As I lay on my bed He truly spoke to my heart and said, “I miss you dear one. Where have you been? You don’t even know where your bible is do you?”  UUUUUMMM well since you can’t lie to God, I said, “No, Lord I sure don’t! I am so sorry, please forgive me.

Wonderfully forgiven I sit here typing.  Then He let me know that I need to write about this. So here it is.  It doesn’t matter what situation you are in always make time for God. While you are on your back hacking up a lung, spend some time in prayer.

When needy children who are clawing and pawing at you surround you, read them a verse from the Bible.  (Not the rain down fire and brimstone people!) Pray a blessing of peace over them.  God’s word never returns void as it says in Isaiah 55:11 NLT “It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it.”

God has been trying to get my attention. It seems rather painful right now, but it could have been worse.  The CT scan shows no more cysts. My flu will eventually go away.  My husband and dad have been super heroes helping me.

God provides.

He never leaves us. He is, He was and Always will be. He is the provider. He is the Rock. He is everything to me.  He heals all my ills, affords me with great care. He never leaves me with a burden I can’t bear.  I am never alone. He is always near. He will never stop bending to me His listening ear. Unfaithful am I to share this truth.  May I be more like your beloved Ruth.

Forsooth. Gotta love that word!!! I wanted to use it in my poem, but, was unable to. I Used it in a random sentence.  🙂

Any way. Listen to the Lord He is pretty awesome!

A sticky situation.

This morning my three-year-old was sitting ever so quietly on the floor looking at some books. I stepped outside to hang up a wet floor mat.  When I returned I sat at the computer as I was listening to an amazing audio story I had just found through a fellow blogger. (See next post.)

I was listening intently as I heard her say, “Mommy, this is so sticky!”  Her pudgy little finger was stuck inside a blob of purple goo that was once a glue stick.  I asked her if she knew she wasn’t supposed to be playing with the glue, (All the while wondering where she got the glue because I thought they were all put up.) and she told me yes it was wrong.

So here is the lesson. 🙂 You had to know this was coming! Right? 

Don’t put your hands in other peoples business!~  Or as I tell the kids, “If it isn’t yours, don’t touch it.”  

When we put ourselves into a sticky situation, we often get involved in a mess that is not ours.  We need to ask God for wisdom before we try to fix a situation that isn’t ours to try to repair.  Maybe they (or we) are in the situation because of our foolishness and God is trying to teach us something valuable.

We can avoid sticking our fingers in a glue stick if we “Seek the throne, before we make someone’s problem our own.” Tara Young

Avoid that sticky situation today friends! 🙂

Takin’ me some supplements!

 

As I spent time reading my Bible today I laughed out loud. The kids were having a crazy time at the breakfast table and I had gotten up early to read my bible. I told myself that I was not getting up until I was done with my Bible study!

After a recent conversation with my 10-year-old where I had confessed to her that the “day” I was the nicest was the only day that I read my bible that week. She looked at me in all seriousness and said, “Bible study? Who knew?” Well that just solidified that my time without God had not gone unnoticed last week!

I spent time reading a couple of passages and really began to focus on one passage in particular.

Verse 5 struck me because as many of us have deficiencies in our diets, we are always told we need to take a supplement of some sort. Vitamin D, fish oil, and a really good multivitamin are a few I have been told to take.

Here was a biblical supplement list from 1 Peter 1:3-10 ESV

 

Take some faith with virtue.
Then you need some virtue with knowledge.
Add knowledge with self-control.
Self-control is paired with steadfastness.
On top of that, you need steadfastness with godliness.
For good measure you should also have godliness with brotherly affection.
The last important set is brotherly affection with love.

I am of course adding the humor here but it goes on to say that if these qualities are yours and are increasing, they keep you from being ineffective or unfruitful in the knowledge of the Lord.

So. What are we doing to supplement our spiritual walk?

Spending time in the Word anyone?

Be blessed friends and get your supplement daily!!!

 

 

Life lesson

Filling my stomach with food that I don’t need is like trying to do something only God can. Nothing fills like God. Nothing fixes like God. No person, no thing, no item can fill the emptiness. God is the only one that can fill a void that is left by sin being cleaned out. If you are empty, ask Him to fill you. If you are sad, ask for joy. If you are lonely, be a friend. If you are grouchy, ask God to make you laugh. If you are heartbroken, ask God to mend your heart. If you are fighting with someone over something dumb, stop fighting and ask God to make you a peacemaker. If you are a “functioning nagaholic” STOP and ask Gd to make you thankful for the blessings in your life rather than focusing on the negative and then harping on the people in YOUR path. Be thankful! Be kind! Be loving! Be gracious!~

Ok! so that was God’s lesson to me this morning.

Nearly 19 years ago

Nearly 19 years ago, I was walking in the dark

Nearly 19 years ago, I was living, walls so stark.

Nearly 19 years ago, I was not walking in the light

Nearly 19 years ago, I was walking in my might.

 

Nearly 19 years ago, I lived a life so wild.

Nearly 19 years ago, I found myself with child

Nearly 19 years ago, I chose to take your life from you

Nearly 19 years ago, I still wonder where time flew.

 

Now 19 years later, I still grieve my loss.

Now 19 years later, my life is not all dross

Now 19 years later, three other souls are with you on that side.

Now 19 years later, sorrow spills a salty tide.

 

Now 19 years later, my tears once a year do fall

Now 19 years later, I have given Him my all

Now 19 years later, I am grateful He forgives

Now 19 years later, in my heart He loves and lives.

 

This is a very tender subject for me. Tonight my husband got a phone call about a friend and his wife ready to deliver a baby. I was reminded of my choice and that I will never have a biological child. That time has past because of medical reasons, but this I do know, He is in control at all times. Please know that there are many who have suffered silently with grief. Don’t continue. Ask for help from someone in your church or find a godly counselor to reach out to. Call a friend and ask for help. Don’t stay locked away in your sorrow or depression! You are loved. You are forgiven. You are precious to the One who created you!

 Thank you Lord for redeeming me and loving me.