Only God

There is a darkness in our souls that only God can fill.

The question is do you and I think He’ll fit the bill?

 

There is a darkness in our minds that only God can light.

The question is do you and I think l think it’s worth the fight?

 

There is darkness behind our eyes and in our hearts so large.

Are you and I willing to let only God be in charge.

 

In times of doubt, in times, of fear, in times we have no clue.

If we trust in Him in all we do, only God will carry us through.

 

We don’t know what tomorrow holds or where we will be.

This I know, He loves us so, and only God can set us free.

 

Only God can make a way where there seems to be no way. His promise is true.  “Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all of your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6

He will make it straight. Life has twists and turns and leads us down paths we would rather not follow.  You may be there right now. He will do what He says. I trust Him. Will you?

God, please help us as we walk down some perilous paths.  Paths that we have to walk down by force or by choice. Help us to fully trust in You when the outcome we pray for doesn’t seem possible.  Please protect our family, our children and our loved ones today. Guide and direct them in paths of righteousness for Your namesake. Though we may walk through the valley of death. We don’t have to fear evil because You are with us. In the name of Jesus we pray. Amen

 

I Love you,

Tara

 

 

In times of questioning… Part 1

In this time of questioning, one must ask, “What is Your will Father?” When all else seems to be lost in the time of confusion, one must ask, “Will You clear the way?” Yet, here I sit typing away wondering about the days to come. Not because I doubt His plan for us, rather what do I do to be obedient to Him.  When you don’t know what to do, what is the best option? Wait. Wait. Wait.  Wait until His path is illuminated. Wait until He tells us what to do. What until there is peace in the decision-making process.  So how am I going to do that??? I don’t honestly know.

These past few weeks have been really hard.  Challenging and frustrating. Scary and sorrowful.

I homeschool two of our three children. We have had an amazing year. A quote from Charles Dickens comes to mind, “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times…” Homeschool can be just that! Amazing and wonderful most days, but there are days I want to snatch them bald to be perfectly honest.  (They still have all of their hair 😉

Last week, my daughter’s computer crashed.  The one that she has been using for all of her school curriculum. In my 40+ years, I have NEVER had a computer crash. Needless to say, we lost everything. Why now?

We had some options. Option 1 was send the hard drive to a team of specialists in a white room where they would take apart every little minute piece of our hard drive to try to save the data, to the cost of $600-$1000.  Or option 2, (which we chose) was to replace the hard drive and lose everything.  EVERYTHING! All of her work since August was gone.

That left us with a very creative fun week of letter writing, cooking and library trips, to check out our weekly 60 plus books.  Though the computer was returned in perfect working order, I am bummed about the loss of her hard work.

We then received word that our health insurance policy was expiring, and they were not going to be renewing our policy. WHAT? Ok. Now what?  After doing research, finding an agent, and meeting at a local restaurant, we find that our income doesn’t support the need we have.  Swallow. Deep breath. God has this under control. He really does. Yes. He. Does. I continually tell myself. HE DOES. Full time work may be calling me out of the home.  God knows. He does.

That same week, my littlest runs in from the shop yelling that there is something wrong with one of our cats.  He had been sick, but not for long, and I had a feeling that Mr. Pickles wasn’t going to live much longer. Within moments of that conversation, he had passed away.  Sadly, their little hearts were throbbing in and their cries of hysterical pain echoed across the open area between the shop and our home.

Typically we have to bury an animal quickly, but daddy wasn’t home and I couldn’t break the rocky ground with the shovel. As hard as I tried, I just couldn’t get a hole started. The questions came from the kids, “Why did this happen to Mr. Pickles?” “Why couldn’t we have one more week?”

Helping children whilst crying yourself, isn’t always effective.  Through the tears and struggle, we made it through the day. Daddy came home and we buried Mr. Pickles.img_1054

I will close this post by saying this, life isn’t easy. Pain comes and hearts that once beat strongly, are snuffed out. Exhaustion is getting the best of me so I will close. Part 2 will not be far behind.

May you find solace in the One who catches every tear in a bottle.  Psalm 56:8 “You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle. Are they not in your book?”

I know we have been covered in prayer and seek that same solace.

Blessings,

Tara

 

 

 

A Dare of a Prayer – Will you take the challenge?

Lord,

Help me as I walk down this very daunting path.
Change my heart now filled with anger and wrath.

God show me how to love like You.
To encourage in the way that is true.

Show me Father how to love.
How to encourage my children, not mentally shove.

Them away from a loving embrace,
but to run the heavenly race.

In the name of Jesus I pray. Amen

At times, parenting can feel so daunting and discouraging. Life catches up to us and we get frustrated with responsibility. It can be so easy to just say, go turn on the tv and let mommy (or daddy) think.  Yet, they just want to be loved, hugged, and encouraged just as we do. 1 Thessalonians 5:11 says, “Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.
This should be our goal outside the home and inside the home. Regardless of situations, regardless of what life throws at us. Home is the place to run home and feel safe.

I dare us to pray that God changes our hearts, not to be annoyed, but to love as He does.

Praying today!

Tara

Let Your Mercy Wash Over Me

Let Your Mercy Wash Over Me.

By: Tara Young

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Let your mercy flow like a river run

Washing over me.

Let the ebb and flow of this sinful life

Wash away from me.

Send your spirit Lord to fill my heart with joy.

In your mercy Lord wash me white as snow.

Let your mercy flow

Let your love change me                                               

Let your light shine down

Let your hope fill me

Let your joy overflow

Let your peace abound.

Let your fire burn.

Let forgiveness fall.

Let your mercy wash over me.

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5 bucks and a pair of boots.

I was praying the other day because Sammy had a need for a pair of work boots. The 8-9 year old pair that he had just lost their sole. ( I know this because I was working in the garden the other day and found it!!! Buried! He must have lost it when he was tilling.)

I went with very little money to the three thrift stores in town and of course got a little more disappointed each time when there weren’t any boots to buy. I prayed again, “Lord, Sammy wears a size 11 boot. Please provide for him.”

The final store I went into, I found one pair of boots in his size! They are “vintage” Vibram hiking boots! vibram bootsI knew they were an expensive pair because they were made in Italy, but I had NO idea that I got such amazing boots for 5 BUCKS!  God does stuff like that all the time. He cares about each detail and knows all of our needs, He just waits for us to ask so He can show us HOW He will provide all of our needs according to His riches in glory. (Philippians 4:19 “And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.”http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Philippians+4%3A19&version=NASB)  

God cares about all of our needs.

Even a pair of size 11 boots 🙂

Bless ya friends!

Hello Sunshine. Good morning Lord.

2Just peeking over the tree

4You’ve given this beauty for all to see.

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Rays that stream across the sky.

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Bringing hope to the tear filled eye.

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In this day let us walk with You, when we are weak please carry us through.

 “Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes with the morning.” Psalm 30:5b ESV

Snakes and Kittens and Prayers oh my!

Young saga…
No snakes in the hen house after it was reinforced.
2 kittens reappeared! They were stalking bugs on the back porch! They are a little thin, but happy!!

Sierra has been praying that God would protect the kittens and bring them home. I love that she has the faith in a very big God and trusted Him no matter the outcome. The extreme joy and hope on her face was priceless. Thank you Lord for hearing the prayers of my daughter and blessing her faithfulness.