Humbly Bowed

Humbly bowed, in your presence Lord.  I call to you, come find me where I am.

I’m begging now, down on my knees. I need you God, to make me pure again.

Here I am, a sinner needing cleansed. Come wash me now, from all this filth and sin.

Forgiveness flows, like blood and water flowed. From Your side, Your life just slipped away.

Thank you God, forgiveness floods my soul. I’m pure again, washed as white as snow.

My sins are cast. Far away from me. From east to west, thank you God I’m free!

 

Questioning

Do I base my opinion on what other people think?
Do I allow what they say into my heart to sink?

Is my merit based on work? Is my life based on fame?
If it is, wow, that would be such a shame.

Useless as a severed limb lying on the floor.
Doubting, seeking, asking what am I really here for?

Oh God instill in me a passion and a zest,
for this life you have given me, I truly am well blessed.

I think I have a listening ear.
Am I trusting you? Will I persevere?

Your plan I feel so strong one day
can nearly be swayed by one another day.

Yet here I am waiting for you please
confirm what I should do.

In that waiting let me wait
with patience, kindness, that is how I will pray it.

Where am I God? I can’t see where?
I look into the mirror and I stare.

Who are you there before me?
A woman waiting to be what I should be.

I long for solace in my heart,
Lord start today, please help me start.

To be motivated in all I do.
To work my guts out just for You.

On the roller coaster, its up and down.
Once a smile now a frown.

The fear that follows bind it up
Lord fill me up,please fill my cup.

My heart hurts and aches so.
Let your peace upon me flow.

Deepest water rushing in
cleansing me from hurt and sin.

Let your truth be evident
Let your peace be prevalent.

In My Anger Based on Matthew 21

In My Anger
Based on Matthew 21
By: Tara Young

In my anger do I sin?
You know I am boiling deep within.

When I don’t get what I think I need,
I am overcome with greed.

Greed to get what I want,
not just so that I can flaunt.

But when they don’t do what I say,
and life just doesn’t go my way.

Why can’t they just listen to me?
I am trying to train them to be.

Young ladies who will work for good.
To honor God because they should.

Not just because I am in charge,
but in the grand scheme of life, obedience is large.

It transfers from us to Him.
May their hearts not be swayed by sin.

Their hearts not like aged, hardwood,
but to be pliable as it should.

Lord, let my heart be one with You.
May my heart be strong and true.

Drive out the “money changers” in my heart.
Clean it and give me a fresh start.

My life is Yours, let me be,
an example for my children to see.

How Your love washes clean and pure.
Giving strength to endure.

The struggles of every day life,
In my journey as mother and wife.

Let my heart bask in Your purity.
Let me be with You in unity.

Farm Life. The saga continues with a snake in the hen house.

So our on going farm saga continues…
This morning as our middle child did her morning feeding of the chickens, she ran quickly inside yelling, “There is a snake or a snake skin in the baby chicken coop!!!” Sammy, super dad, followed her with great speed to the coop. Poor little guinea hens… 2 down. One made it impossible for the rat snake to get back out, and the other died in waiting.  Farm life is hard, and lessons are learned. We don’t know how it got into the coop and we have special fencing up to 4 feet tall. IT must have climbed and got into the chicken wire. Kind of like sin. We leave a small opening for it and it creeps up maybe at night or when we don’t expect it. We always have to be on alert. Always prepared. Consequences come from a “snake in the hen house.”

You are the One

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You are the One
By: Tara Young

You are my King and my Lord
Gracious forevermore.
You are the one
You are the one.

You the Savior, Son of the King
You are the One
You are the One

I lift my voice to You
You are all that’s good and true.
You are the One
You are the One

My heart cries out to you
You are deliverer too
You are the One
You are the One

Finding solace there
You’ve counted each and every hair
You are the One
You are the One

For every tear I’ve cried
for every lie I’ve lied.
You are the One
Yes, You are the One.

You are the beginning and the end
Alpha Omega without sin
You are the One
Oh, You are the One.

Lord You are the One
Yes, You are the One

Creator of everything
Life giving Holy God
You are the One
Yes, You are the One

Joy giving, heart healer
Mind blowing love revealer
You are the One
Yes You are the One

Jesus your mighty hand
Delivers me from sinking sand
You are the One
You are the One

Soiled and forgiven dove.
I am one You dearly love
You are the One
You are the One

God my heart you mend
When my clothes I have rend
You are the One
You are the One

Peace washes over me
Giving me hope in Your great mercy.
You are the One
Yes You are the One

Gladness unleashed
My life restored
You are the One
You are the One

You are my love
The One I adore
You are the One
You are the One

Love spilling out my heart is full
You’re so awesome. I am Your jewel.
You are the One
Yes, You are the One

Gentle correction or gettin’ knocked on your rear?

Do you ever get that gentle correction from the Lord? Or do you just get that earth-shaking wake up call that knocks you on your rear letting you know you are being disobedient.  God uses whatever He chooses. It is not always a disobedience that He is correcting, but it may be that I am not spending enough time in the Word so He can speak to me. Sometimes He uses those, “AHA!” moments. Sometimes He does use illness. Sometimes He uses other people to let me know that I am falling short.  Sometimes He speaks directly to my heart.   This is what I got today…

Not in these words exactly but the Lord impressed this on my heart. “Tara, you sure are sick.  In the last month you have been in severe pain with a ruptured ovarian cyst and you now have the flu.  I am trying to get your attention here.”  “Yes Lord! I am listening.” As I lay on my bed He truly spoke to my heart and said, “I miss you dear one. Where have you been? You don’t even know where your bible is do you?”  UUUUUMMM well since you can’t lie to God, I said, “No, Lord I sure don’t! I am so sorry, please forgive me.

Wonderfully forgiven I sit here typing.  Then He let me know that I need to write about this. So here it is.  It doesn’t matter what situation you are in always make time for God. While you are on your back hacking up a lung, spend some time in prayer.

When needy children who are clawing and pawing at you surround you, read them a verse from the Bible.  (Not the rain down fire and brimstone people!) Pray a blessing of peace over them.  God’s word never returns void as it says in Isaiah 55:11 NLT “It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it.”

God has been trying to get my attention. It seems rather painful right now, but it could have been worse.  The CT scan shows no more cysts. My flu will eventually go away.  My husband and dad have been super heroes helping me.

God provides.

He never leaves us. He is, He was and Always will be. He is the provider. He is the Rock. He is everything to me.  He heals all my ills, affords me with great care. He never leaves me with a burden I can’t bear.  I am never alone. He is always near. He will never stop bending to me His listening ear. Unfaithful am I to share this truth.  May I be more like your beloved Ruth.

Forsooth. Gotta love that word!!! I wanted to use it in my poem, but, was unable to. I Used it in a random sentence.  🙂

Any way. Listen to the Lord He is pretty awesome!

Take a breath. Pray. Be a peacemaker.

Instead of yelling, I have prayed. Instead of letting my kids fight, we have prayed. Instead of letting frustrations get the best of us, we have prayed. Amazing what prayer can do! Amazing how many times we are praying instead of reacting too! “A gentle answer deflects anger, but harsh words make tempers flare.” Proverbs 15:1 NLT
“A prayer of one overwhelmed with trouble, pouring out problems before the L LORD, hear my prayer! Listen to my plea!”  Psalm 102:1 NLT
“He will listen to the prayers of the destitute. He will not reject their pleas.”  Psalm 102:17 nlt

In this tumultuous time of change, my temper has flared quite a lot.  My husband is so wise. He said, “Stop and pray before you react.”  I know this fact. I believe that the Lord answers prayer. Yet my sinful life overwhelms the truth.

I have to stop and pray so that I teach my children to do what is right instead of overreacting because of my circumstances.

Take a breath.  Pray.  Be a peacemaker.

“Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God.”  Matthew 5:9

I’m sorry Lord.

 

Lord, I’m sorry I have not kept trusting. All the while my Bible sat rusting.

I’ve only been away for two or three days, but I’ve seen Your hand in so many ways.

You’ve brought us extra money and boy, that’s sweeter that sugar, sweeter than honey!

You’ve shown us daily that You’ll always be here to catch that unsuspected escaping tear.

They flow so freely down my cheeks. How long will the pain last. Hopefully not weeks!

In a bottle you save  all my gloom You place them carefully in that room.

You are truthful. You are kind. You always keep me sane in my mind.

You are generous. You are wise. So why does your faithfulness always surprise?

“Lord I believe, help my unbelief.”  To be with You in your throne room I feel incredible relief.

Thank you Lord for forgiving me. For making me more into the woman I’m to be.

 

Psalm 56:8 “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.”

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I got into the truck the other day and a foul scent assaulted me! Blech!  Something smelled rotten or deceased.  I looked under every seat thinking maybe I left some sort of food in the truck or on the rare time, the kids got something from a fast food restaurant they dropped a piece of meat or something. The stench was overwhelming. After searching the entire truck, I found NOTHING!

Nothing that I could see.

Ah but we all know just because we can’t see something does not mean it is not there.   Of course I felt like God had a lesson for me. I asked the Lord to reveal the hidden stench of sin in my life. What do I not see that is foul to His nose?  Is it bitterness? Is it a lack of faith? Is it lack of trust in God who always knows what I need? Is it fear?   I spent a lot of time praying about it and He revealed to me what it was. (I don’t have to tell you!! haha my blog my rules! :))  I asked the Lord to forgive me and after a few more days and a few more prayers, the stench in the truck had dissipated. God is so faithful dear people.

Any hidden sin “hiding in your truck”? Any “awful smells”?

Ask God to reveal it to you so that the sweet fragrance of the Lord would envelope you again.
Bless you friends!

Check out this amazing song 🙂

Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone) – Chris Tomlin (with lyrics)

What Keeps You?

What keeps you?

What keeps you from letting Him in? Is it your sorrow or your past sin?

Is it guilt or a burden you carry? Please friend, it’s late don’t tarry.

He’s waiting. We’re waiting we want you to be there. We’re telling you often we’re trying to share.

 Jesus wants you He’s calling your heart today. He’s calling we’re praying please don’t delay.

His arms await your heart for His throne. You were bought with a price and you are not your own.

Let go of your past. He wants your sweet life. Stop fighting. Stop struggling. Stop the strife.

He waits for you to call His name. I promise you will never be the same.

Call out to Jesus; give your heart my dear. The rest of your life He will hold you near.