Heart under construction.

imageGod has been truly working on my heart. it has been under construction.

My voice to the kids is acidic, and hurtful at times. I would like to blame it on them but I am responsible for the actions and words of my mouth. This week I’ve been reading in Proverbs.

Proverbs 12:16 it says,  “Fools show their annoyance at once, but the prudent overlook an insult.” Regardless of what they do, I am responsible for what comes out of my mouth, and how I say it. That’s confirmed two verses later in Proverbs 12:18 “The words of the reckless pierced like swords, but the tongue of the wise brings healing.” I certainly do not want to pierce my children with my words, I would much rather bring healing. So why did they frustrate me so? It probably boils down to selfishness. They don’t act like I want them to act. They don’t act how I expect them to act. Yet I have to train them to behave properly. To be a functioning and productive member of society and show self-control.
Newsflash! They are kids. Kids do dumb stuff. Kids get into fights. Kids do great things. Kids help when they’re asked. It’s just the balance of the way I view them. Therein lies my problem. I need to view them as a gift more often rather than I view them with frustration. I need to show love and patience, rather than my first response being sharp like a sword piercing them.

Psalm 85:10-13 “Love and faithfulness meet together; Righteousness and peace kiss each other. Faithfulness springs forth from the earth, and righteousness looks down from heaven. The Lord will indeed give what is good and our land will yield its harvest. Righteousness goes before him; and prepares the way for his steps.”

Now that’s what I’m talking about! I would rather have love and faithfulness meeting together, but see, it starts with me. Not them. Me. He is faithful to work through me and I need to yield do that part of me to Him on a daily or hourly basis (minutes or seconds in reality sometimes).

I paint a rather icky picture of myself here perhaps because of what I know is on the inside of me. Parenting isn’t easy. It definitely can refine us as people.

The truth of the matter is, I want my kids to love one another. I don’t want damaged relationships, though I realize that is out of my control. I want to share from what I have seen and experienced so they don’t have to go through things I went through. Yet, just as I chose my path, they also must choose theirs.

I need to equip them for life and what lies ahead. In doing that with a relationship with God, a blanket of peace and arms full of love, they will succeed. They are God’s children. On loan to my husband and I. A lofty task, yet a worthy one.

Lord, may We today be the moms you have asked us to be. Help us to love without fear, teach without anger and be a peacemaker rather than a peace-breaker.
In the name of Jesus we pray.

Amen

You can do this friend!

As I was reading…

Praying Scripture for the Kids

I was reading Psalm 119 this morning and I began to pray scripture for my family.

“Teach me good judgment for I believe in Your commandments.” Psalm 119:66

Lord, I fall short every day but I can’t live in my bed under the sheets weighed down with discouragement feeling like a failure. I would never leave me sweet solace also known as my bed if that were the case!!

bibleTeach me good judgment when it comes to circumstances and people who I don’t know how to handle. Give me the knowledge that I need to process and deal with the things that come into my life. Give me the wisdom of Solomon as I train my children in Your ways.

Help me to guide them for You and into Your kingdom. My heart’s desire is for them to love You. My prayer for them is that they walk in Your path. I ask that when they rise on the wings of the dawn, if they settle on the seas. Even there Your hand will guide them. My hope is that Your right hand will hold them fast. (Psalm 139)

I pray that You would teach them O Lord the way of Your statutes, and give each of them and understanding so that they can keep your law and observe it with their whole heart. Father, please lead them in the path of Your commandments. May they truly delight in them. Incline their hearts to Your testimonies. You have done so much in their young lives, may they see and understand that. Help them not to do things for selfish gain. Lord, please turn their eyes from looking to worthless things that won’t fill them with lifelong peace and joy, but let them see Your abundance. Give them life in Your ways Sweet Jesus.(Psalm 119:33-37)

Bless my children with the fruit of the spirit. (Galatians 5:22-23) With love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness and especially self-control. That one God has been a challenge for all of us lately!

Father reign us all in to be aligned with Your will so that we can honor You. In the name of Jesus I pray. Amen.

Embrace

Embrace
By Tara Young

Let us embrace this amazing race. May we run this gauntlet with your awe-inspiring grace.

Our children Lord are a gift from You. Sometimes we go crazy with the stuff they do.

Fill us today and each day that follows, with joy not floundering like a pig in its wallow.

But to truly enjoy each moment each day. To savor, to love, to guide in Your way.

May each reaction be true, kind, and loving. Discipline and caring with firmness and hugging.

These 3 young ladies have been entrusted to us. You have blessed us not wanting to listen to us fuss.

Grateful hearts we want to grow. In Your garden of life we want them to know.

Just how grand our Father in Heaven is. He granted our hearts cries how gracious He is.

Joy flows forth now God we do ask. Help us to trust and wait while we bask.

In your glory also poured from above. Help us shower these gems with Your love

Lift it up

Lift up my head o gates and ancient doors.
Lift up my eyes cast down to the floors.

Lift up my heart nearly turned to stone.
Lift it up make it more like Your own.

Lift my feet to high places God.
Up where deer and wildlife trod.

Up to the hills and near the clouds.
Up near your throne Your beauty shrouds.

Lifted up in Your loving hand.
Take me into the Promised Land.

Milk and honey flow not old.
Walk along on the streets of gold.

Nearer Lord to you I seek.
Thank You for this little peek.

Inspired by Psalm 24:7-8

I Will Wait

I Will Wait
I am waiting for the change to come.
I will wait.

I am waiting for hearts to bend.
I will wait

I am waiting for things to turn right side up.
I will wait.

I am waiting for Your spirit Lord.
I will wait

I am waiting for Your love to bloom.
I will wait.

I am waiting for Your joy to come.
I will wait.

I am waiting for Your peace to flow.
I will wait.

I am waiting for my eagles wings.
I will wait.

I am waiting for Your loving arms.
I will wait.

When my time on earth is done.
My waiting will have ceased.

©Tara Young

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Tangled

Sometimes in life things get so twisted and tangled, we don’t know which way is up or down, nor do we care!

Sometimes life has us all confused and we are waiting and wandering around clueless wondering if we will ever find the direction we are looking for.

Until finally we have that “AHA!” moment when things become clear. Peace flows over us now that we know direction.

 

He has not forgotten us. He has not left us without hope. He does however use times of silence to see how good our listening skills are.  Are we really listening?  Are we telling Him what we want from Him rather than asking what He wants from us? Ask God what direction He wants you to go and I will do the same. 🙂

Proverbs 3:5-6
New Life Version (NLV)
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not trust in your own understanding. 6 Agree with Him in all your ways, and He will make your paths straight.

Take a breath. Pray. Be a peacemaker.

Instead of yelling, I have prayed. Instead of letting my kids fight, we have prayed. Instead of letting frustrations get the best of us, we have prayed. Amazing what prayer can do! Amazing how many times we are praying instead of reacting too! “A gentle answer deflects anger, but harsh words make tempers flare.” Proverbs 15:1 NLT
“A prayer of one overwhelmed with trouble, pouring out problems before the L LORD, hear my prayer! Listen to my plea!”  Psalm 102:1 NLT
“He will listen to the prayers of the destitute. He will not reject their pleas.”  Psalm 102:17 nlt

In this tumultuous time of change, my temper has flared quite a lot.  My husband is so wise. He said, “Stop and pray before you react.”  I know this fact. I believe that the Lord answers prayer. Yet my sinful life overwhelms the truth.

I have to stop and pray so that I teach my children to do what is right instead of overreacting because of my circumstances.

Take a breath.  Pray.  Be a peacemaker.

“Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God.”  Matthew 5:9